And the Record Begins with a Song of Rebellion {say anything}

For years I have been told to write. I write the way I speak, so get comfortable because we are going to get into some deep conversations. When I began my research to build an online presence all I hear is "blog blog blog" (blahblahblah) and hope for the best. For almost the same amount of years I have resisted writing, even knowing how it soothes me and how it helps me ease into quiet confidence. Why deny something that obviously brings me peace? I face up to my problems (and trust me, there have been some WHOPPERS! More on this later), but there are some demons that rise up while I write it out and so it has been a piece of me missing as I deny, deny, deny my power. I liken my resistence of writing to eating an orange. I LOVE oranges, they are a delightful fruit of many tasty applications. But here’s my problem: I really dislike peeling oranges and SO getting me to eat them is difficult. I am like a child in this respect, but I know and therefore I am trying to change that about myself.

Have you ever just felt that switch flip inside of you where you know you have to instill big changes? I always feel the energy rising up around me right before it happens. But it never happens until I relax, and only because I keep making different choices until something fits. And then I realize I’m creating my own reality. So that’s what this is to me: A new perspective, not a new me, a refreshed me. A me 6.0! This blog is for healthful, happy, easy living…even in the toughest of times. I just have to get it out of me, I have to express myself some other way. My words feel all jumbled inside of my head and even if no one ever sees this blog, the words will be out of my head and Nicholas (my beloved, my manfriend) does't have to suffer every tiny thought I have. He can read about it online! I feel this will improve my memory. Like word vomit, I feel it in waves. All these words inside my head, when my head used to get this way I would write music.

NOW…after nearly five years of being a stay at home mother to the most enchanting little lady I've ever met, in 7 years moving 13 times (coast to coast) and really, ACTIVELY searching for myself, 8 years of struggling financially, 6 years on an incredible journey of friendship and love to one another and selves, 10 years of nannying, 15 years of yoga practice, 16 years of working in an office or for someone else, 26 years of knowing the sibling connection, and 22 years of living in someone's shadow, I will emerge. And it will be beautiful, and emotional, and peaceful and joyous. I will know my self, my voice, again and it will be now.

Life on a String is about becoming an empowered and compassionate individual, a parent, a lover, an artist, a yogi, an entrepreneur, a friend, a terrible gardener, a ninja, a foodie, a woman, a human being. I want to inform you, make you think, cheer you up, teach you how, give you strength, open your mind, aaaand maybe throw in a little political awareness for you. Mostly I want feedback and to learn from nature and the people attracted to this space. I want to be an advocate for humanity because in doing that I am also an advocate for myself, my family, my friends and my readers. I want to create an open forum of kind people who want to improve with me, there aren’t enough places to feel safe or heard. I know there are more of you out there, not offended by anyones political/sexual/financial/educational standing but offer respect that all of us have the ability to BE DIVERSE. Celebrate diversity. Research EVERYTHING before making your mind up. Seek to live a clean, healthy life with self:family:friends:universe. We have the resources. It is time!

Let's do this, together.

Until next time!

xo

M

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